You Broke The Promise.

It has now been 2 and half years, and finally I can sayout loud...I hate you.

I remember it like it was yesterday. Everyday I remember eternal yesterdays. I just sat there and stared at the screen. I was one of so many who knew nothing of what to do. You abandoned us...you abandoned me as if it didn't matter. Such a show of callous indifference I thought could never be shown. The shaking and tears would never be enough to demonstrate the ruin you brought to me. In a moment, the guidance that was relied upon so heavily was pulled from underneath and leaving one naked and alone.

The lessons learnt from this experience are deep and unavoidable. You left a person who was too young to loose someone that way, and created a void. You taught that sometimes no consideration is the best option. Allowing the world to know that when life it difficult, just let go and leave everyone behind. All those words of wisdom were fabrications of the reality you lived. Hypocrite with sweet words of reassurance.

I pray to you. You were my guiding light, but you extinguished your own flame. Late at night, I close my eyes and beg you to come back to save the day. Yet the answer is always silence...deep penetrating silence which with every second destroys my fragile soul further. You're the thorn in my side that just won't be removed. I carry your memory as a burden, not just a homage. You are a spector of a world past which I can't forget...I will not forget.

Now the world has moved away from you. Your memory is just a whisper in the world drowned out by pointless noise. It makes everyone so small and irrelavent. Yet you will be with me forever. Never the less, I have someone new. Ready to bare to burden of my perpetual struggle. In turn I bare whatever they strive to prevail against. This is no rejection of you, but a continuation of your work. You and countless others have inspired us to continue your work. Your selfish in what you did, but you were selfless in your cause. A world of dire straits has lost a spark...